Melodic Prayer: The Song Which I Needed to Write In a Valley

From 2018-2019, I struggled much. I would ultimately experience a depressive episode that academic year (though it wasn't the first I believed it was the first which where I acknowledging what my feelings were). During this time, I would cling to faith so much and I truly believe it was providence that amidst this valley I consecrated myself to Mary for the first time and even before starting that began to deepen my devotion to her. During this time I would write a song (lyrics only, even now taking piano lessons I'm not 100% confident I have enough skill to add music to it) addressed to her, referring to her as mama. August 22, 2025 was the Queenship of Mary so I guess in a way as a celebration I wanted to share the lyrics of this song with you.

Mama's Prayer

Dearest Mother I run to you batter and bruised, tattered and used. I stand before thee hand open holding the broken pieces of my heart of my soul. I tried to fix the brokenness yet every time a hole remains.

Chorus:

Mama, I flee, from the world, into your embrace. I look in the mirror, my reflection is not my own. I look into these eyes and only see sadness. There's a distant light. I grab a hold of it, yet each time I feel his grip upon me pulling me back, pulling me ways. Mama, I can't do this alone. I need help Mama.

Dearest Mother, I see the sunrise only to see it fade away. Joy evades me. Hope seems lost. The world appears gray. Repeat Chorus

Dearest Mother, each new mistake finds its way to me. I try, but can't it out of my mind. I try to ignore, but he keeps reminding me. To bridge

Bridge:

Dearest Mother, bring me to the foot of the cross. Bring me to love. Bring me to hope. Dearest Mother, bring me to faith and joy. Dearest Mother, bring me to Christ. Repeat Bridge. then repeat chorus

While this post was on the shorter side I hope you enjoyed it. This song I see now was a prayer to the Blessed Virgin pleading to bring me to Christ as I felt so distant to him in a dark valley of that first year of college. It is such a platitude to say that Christ is closest when he feels the farthest away, but even at 19 hindsight shows me I experienced it. No, prayer whether intentional or not, as this song is an example of perhaps an unintentional prayer, or perhaps it wasn't, but either way prayer did not fix the situation I was but made it so the much more bearable. I hope you have never experienced the feelings I did in 2018-19, but if you have hope it made you realize you were much stronger than you ever knew. See you on the next time on this merry journey of my life.